In the Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini you and Amir seem to have a close relationship. Your relationship is significantly different compared to most. When Amir wrote your names on a small tree as the "Sultans of Kabul" it showed that your friendship is strong. However you have unconditional love for Amir. Youre also exceedingly loyal to Amir. Your relationship is emotionally wearing and rather gloomy for the most part. The main reason for your complicated relationship is the fact that Amir is a Pashtun, and you are a Hazara. The Afghan society places you lower than Amir. I understand that you are his servant, however you grew up together and you should treat him more as a friend not a master. Your placement in the Afghan society disenables Amir from becoming your true friend. Amir starts seeing you lower than human and he ruins the chance for a great friendship because he is jealous of you. He also possesses such extreme guilt for what he has done to Hassan.
Amir is clearly an emotionally unstable person, but his resentment towards you is increased because of his own haunting guilt. This guilt that seems to be terrorizing Amir is caused by his experience of watching your rape in the alley. This tragic experience is haunting him because he didnt act upon his inner voice. Amir is so guilty that he can no longer be close to you. Amir says, "I'd hear Hassan shuffling around the kitchen in the morning, hear the clinking of silverware, the whistle of the teapot. I'd wait to hear the door shut and only then I would walk down to eat". Amir has trouble facing his guilt. Amir knows what he did was wrong; he knew that he should have helped him. Amir knows that he has done wrong because he says, "There was a monster in the lake. It had grabbed Hassan by the ankles, dragged him to the murky bottom. I was that monster". Amir eventually proceeds to the point where he can no longer deal with his everlasting guilt. He then frames you of thievery; although this plan ultimately backfires and causes Amir even more personal anguish, it proves that he is an unstable and resentful person.
Amir is jealous of you. This is a primary cause of the problems with your friendship. Amir takes advantage of you. Still you are completely loyal to Amir. He is constantly trying to prove that youre a lower human being than he is. An example of Amir scorning Hassan is depicted when Amir says, "Well, everyone in my school knows what it means,' I said. "Let's see. Imbecile.' it means smart, intelligent. I'll use it in a sentence for you. When it comes to words, Hassan is an imbecile". Amir is mocking the fact that you cant read. Amir is establishing his position of power. Amir continues to try to enlarge his ego. Teasing you makes him feel better about himself. Amir does not feel like he is getting the one thing he wants in his life. He wants acceptance from Baba. Baba seems to favor you, so Amir must establish that he is better than you constantly. Baba says that he feels like he connects with you better when he was talking to Rahim Khan. This is where most of Amir's jealousy is derived from.
Amir has grown up in a society that does not accept people that are Hazara very well. He has grown up in a racist culture. Amir does not protect Hassan at all during any scenario when youre in trouble. He even almost dares to mention that Hassan is not his friend his all. Amir almost says, "But he's not my friend!". Amir almost blurts out this comment because Amir is dying to be accepted by his peers. Amir is giving up his morals just for approval from people such as Assef. He is a coward and he made the wrong choices and never stood up for you. I believe that isnt a true friend. Yes, I understand where Amir is coming from but there should be some respect for you. You have done great things for him. These choices changed both of your lives. These decisions turned Amir into someone that is almost forever troubled.
You were loyal to Amir through everything because that is the personality you were born with, because you grew up with Amir and looked up to him as a brother and a friend. When discovering that you were Baba's son, everything became clear to Amir: Baba's affections for you, your undying love for Amir, Amir's sibling competition and jealousy of you, Amir's betrayal of his own flesh and blood. It all just hit at once. Although Amir carved your names into a tree, Amir's character complicates your ability to be best friends. Both people in a friendship must act equally towards each other and they must hold love, loyalty, and trust for each other. You were the beholder of all of these strong qualities that are necessary for the "best friend" relationship. Unfortunately Amir did not possess any of these qualities, and he did not realize all of his issues until he was informed that he was your brother.